Thoughts after the Ninth and Tenth months – Final months of my Unemployment!
Writing this title is so uplifting on it is own. Last summer – in the first months of this chapter in my life-, I was so hopeful and I could not even dare to imagine, this period will last for 10 months! Now, it is coming to its end, yay! I am counting literally the last days without work. Last summer I read Lauren Roberts Powerless book first, then Reckless, which gave me such a good mood. Today, I started reading her most recent book, called the Fearless and those good memories came back – when I was hopeful and was just enjoying the free time without work. It is an even better feeling now knowing, work and income is on the way.
I am listening to my favourite DJ while writing this post. He is Phikey and his melody house mix always brings me a good vibe and productivity. Which is not surprising because I programmed my mind at the last jobs I had. My last two jobs were full with dull, long and repetitive tasks. I started listening to house music -which is mostly fully electronic and without any singing-, so not disturbing my thinking mind. Without listening to these mixes, I tend to lose focus easily while doing those “brainless” tasks. On top of that, there are so many distractions around us; phone, e-mails on computer, neighbours, family etc. When I put on my headphone, my focus is full on the task, like now, when writing this blog post for you.
The news is, that I got an enterprise application support specialist job at an international company, in Germany. The compromise is that we must relocate to Germany. This is what we tried avoiding at every cost few years ago, when I first worked in Germany and at this company. Years ago, we rather decided commuting 1200 kms in every few weeks and live a nomadic life. Now, this is not possible because as a permanent employee, I must become German resident. First it was hard to “consume”, I am losing my freedom. I was a freelancer in the last 8 years. Then the fact, we lose -again- our nomadic lifestyle. I was prepared mentally for such scenario as I knew, it is impossible to make a big step ahead in my career without making any sacrifices.
I reframed this opportunity as an investment. An investment to make, so I will be able to stay in business and work for a good 15-20 years again. I am going to use some new systems, so there is a good chance my skills are going to be demanded again in the world of IT. After 16 years, finally I am breaking out from using one specific system that now kept me unemployed – which is still widely used but mostly by engineers offshore. This pushed down dramatically the daily rates and available jobs in Europe. The system that I am going to learn and use at my new job is only used by German and Swiss financial and automotive corporates. Known by maybe a dozen of engineers inside the country. What a privilege to work on such system, that comes with big responsibility too.
Last month I started to get busy. I got a job contract and signed that, which gave me a peace of mind. So, we resumed the pending tasks around our newly refurbished home, which required money. Until last month, we kept all our savings to make it last as long as possible. We did not know how long our savings must last as we get no support from any government. Now, we decided to complete some pending tasks, like finished a moving from one property to the other, completed our library called RenZo Library. From months of dormant state, we switched on to fully active state. It was first difficult, we, human can get used to a dormant state but also to the most active one, however need some time to adjust from one to the other. I can tell, adjusting from active to dormant was more difficult! To become active again was like executing my basic program in my head.
Even my shoulder pain -after a few days, weeks- came back, I enjoyed getting busy again with tasks around the house. We were planning, organising our new life, in a new country. An improvement in my health is that it seems I found a solution for my long lasting blocked nose. It was so disturbing day and night! I got addictive to a particular nose drop too, that gave me a few hours of relief only. I worried, how am I going to give up using the nose drop? I found online a 100% herbal complex that supports the cleanliness of the nasal cavity and the health of the upper respiratory tract. After 3 days of using this product, I got back my nasal breathing. This is a Hungarian product and I don’t think they post overseas yet. Have a look on the link and see the ingredients, maybe abroad there are similar natural complex formulas too.
For my shoulder pain, I started resuming light exercises as I noticed, gaining muscle helps with the pain! I suppose, there is an imbalance of muscles in my left shoulder and arm. I am tired of paying so much out for therapists for massages that offer only a temporary relief. For now, a wall push-up 3×30 looks like a good way to start the strengthening. I resumed my daily yoga. I must get my full health, because in less than a week, I am going to work again. Which is equal sitting at my computer 8 hours a day.
Summary:
If you read, followed my journey, you noticed, this 10 months was a trial and error, full of ups and downs emotionally and physically. Never imagined being unemployed can be so difficult long time. Now, that this is over, I can tell, this period was one of the greatest challenge in my life so far. There are certain things I could have done better and there are some things I am proud of achieving.
I often lost focus and was trying to do too many things instead of just focusing on one task at a time and complete that. I could have achieve at least 2 certifications at my profession but instead I introduced a third system to learn about and achieved no certification. All together I had 5 job interviews and got 2 offers. I was physically in shape and healthy for 5 months and I was unwell for 5 months. Read 28 books in 10 months, which was a record for me. I updated my CV 5 times, roughly in every 2 months. I learnt a lot about how to optimise my CV and LinkedIn for better reach. I gained a lot of knowledge about job searching in 2025, also about improving my interview skills. I learned to control my emotions better and how to stay productive even when I feel a continuous pain. I learned how to get up again after a few hours or days staying down. I learned about holding on in difficult time. I got out of the panic attacks.
The last 10 months challenged me well but I am here, alive, on a way to full recovery and to a new life!
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