The Hungarian Authentic is back with another fresh story. In the last two weeks, I did not post here because I went through a challenging chapter. I was emotionally exhausted. As part of my history, I struggle with confidence issues, lack of self-love, and occasional low moods when I don’t consciously maintain a high vibration. Initially, after returning to Hungary a month ago, I felt powerful and resistant to the lockdown and the general mood around me. This lasted only 2-3 weeks.
The lack of sunshine, nature, social contact, and outdoor activities drained my energy. Despite daily 30-minute walks with my dog and occasional family visits, we stayed at home most of the time. Our “base” is a safe, comfortable bubble, but I realized I was not replenishing my energy. I kept giving to others online, helping people with support and advice, ignoring my own dangerously low energy. I noticed inner stress, frequent small arguments with my wife, and gradual emotional decline. Minor disagreements spiraled into major fights. My once-stable daily routines—yoga, gratitude journaling—continued, but I neglected push-ups, sit-ups, and Wim Hof cold showers, which I had recently started and noticed their benefits. Alcohol consumption, even in small amounts, worsened mood swings.
My online friends noticed my struggle and stepped in to show care and support. Sometimes online friends, whom I have never met in real life, can care more than longtime family and friends. I am deeply grateful to Kifa, Ena, and Nira for their kindness and support. Their actions reminded me how powerful genuine care can be, even across distances.
I realized the importance of giving, kindness, and maintaining authentic relationships. Even sending a handwritten letter or a caring message can make a huge difference in someone’s life. Everyone needs to feel needed, loved, and cared for. If you know someone who might be lonely or struggling, reach out and show them support—it matters more than you realize.
About a week ago, a serious argument with my wife acted as a wake-up call. She said, “I cannot even stand staying with you in one room for two weeks. Please do something about it.” Her words shocked me and forced me to confront myself. I realized I was far from the person I wanted to be. I reflected on my achievements and blessings, feeling frustrated that I was letting my low mood take control.
When caught in a low-mood loop, it feels like driving a car without a steering wheel—you lose control until you regain it. The key is to manage your thoughts and emotions first before addressing external situations. Practical ways to break negative cycles include meditation, reading motivational books, journaling, identifying patterns, calling a friend who makes you laugh, or taking a walk in a social space. Seek professional help if needed. Interrupting negative thought cycles is essential for recovery.
For a week, I felt completely disconnected from myself. I reintroduced push-ups, sit-ups, and resumed Wim Hof Method practices. I listened to 8-10 hours of motivating music daily, which helped maintain a high vibration. I also booked an appointment with my favorite Kinesiology therapist, who has helped me release negative emotional effects related to depression, guilt, anger, and phobias. Professional support can be crucial when self-help alone is insufficient.
I am back on track and committed to staying strong, motivated, and focused. You can blame circumstances, but ultimately it is your responsibility to manage your thoughts and behavior. Take radical steps to break low moods and maintain a high vibration. Remember: our mind fights against us, but we decide whether to win or lose.
Soooo very nice…when im reading this…i notice myself..im smiling…thank u so much zollee….To God be the Glory!!
Hi Ena, thank you for your feedback and for following my posts & journey in life.